im just inescapably sad even though im trying so hard to be grateful and productive and self sufficient and happy
You don’t lose real friends, real opportunities, or real relationships when you start standing up for yourself and setting clear boundaries. You lose abusers, manipulators, narcissists, control freaks, attention seekers, and mental health destroying leeches.“ - Steven Bartlett
there’s so many things I want to do! unfortunately there’s also little determination from my part and images to look at instead
wanting time to pass because life is hard to deal with at the time vs the never ending anxiety over the passage of time
growing up really is scary, deep down I’m still the same as when I was 16 and with no idea of what to do or how to start. and I’m stuck in my head while life goes on
if i’m ever active on tumblr it’s because the mental illness is flaring up
“I still get very high and very low in life. Daily. but I’ve finally accepted the fact that sensitive is just how I was made, that I don’t have to hide it, and I don’t have to fix it. I’m not broken.” - HPYLRIKZ.COM
Resting, maybe, but not giving up.
babygirl i am constantly riddled with extreme feelings of inadequacy
is it so bad to want to kill everyone at all times
went on a walk smelled the pine trees. im fine now
crave blood again
I did the being edgy and self-deprecating thing, it gets old. I wanna be soft and lovely and easily impressed. I wanna appreciate all the little things that make me happy the same way I’ve dwelled on every single thing that upsets me.